Why can't I just be me? I'm always what people expect me to be.

This entry are going to be so odd. I'm "high" on a lots of meds right now. Vallergan, imovane and sobril... I have so many anxiety attacks. I'm so scared. Whats happening with me? I can't controll myself anymore. I don't eat because someone is telling me not to eat. It's like a dictaor. I get hysterical sometimes and I also get anxiety attacs. Why? I want to be healthy again. I can't stand this.

I'm controlled by something I don't know what is...

I'm really tired of sll the meds but I can't go to sleep. It's too risky. Something terrible can happen. I don't know what, but it will happen. I've never long to die so much as I do now.

wow, I hope u understood what I wrote and that I didn't bored u too much.

-Nemi-

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